How shall I put it?
It's been years I've neglected this basic human feeling.
Why?
Ever since college, I dare not to venture that unpleasant ground anymore. Since my life turned up-side down, I cannot afford any @##$ broken. So I make my way as it is...blindfully void.
Why Now?
Well, things going great this time. I finally graduate, got a perfect job (which will commence soon) and I got a house, prematurely. Still, that void lingers...
So?
So, in the end...i went home, all dark and stuffy, sat on my couch, looking at my side...'Eh, mana orang kiri kanan nih?'
Is it loneliness?
OK! goddammit! I admit I was feeling a bit lonely. Is it natural? when you finally thought You've settle down, but you actually making things more invisible?
God made human with pairs you know...
I know, I know...But these things cannot be forced ...
So?
So, gimme a few days, see if this temporary sickness is...well...temporary
